Wednesday, October 3, 2007


I feel so...blah.

For some reason lately, I have trouble caring. All I want to do is come home and curl up on the couch. Which I do and quite honestly, enjoy very much.

But I hate feeling blah. There's no point and things suffer because of it.

#1 thing that suffers from my blah-ness? My weight. Every Tuesday night I sit in front of my TV, drinking, watching the Biggest Loser and crying. I cry because these people really want to make a difference in their lives. They want to live longer, see their children grow up, shop at a normal store, whatever. But every season one of the contestants says something that strikes me..."it was just easier to be fat"

Damn. They're right. It is so much easier to not care. To be lazy. To stop at the drive thru instead of making something healthy.

I always have healthy things in the house. This doesn't mean I make a beeline for them when I'm bored and want to munch. That's my biggest weakness. Boredom. When I'm bored I eat. When I'm upset, I eat. When I'm blah, I eat.

So I'm done with that. Starting tonight, I'm doing it. I won't say "I'm too tired, I'll do it later."

I have 8 million workouts DVD's and an exercise ball. I'm going to start using them.

I guess I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

The only problem is...besides Husband...who is going to hold me accountable?



Anna said...

I hear you 100% on all counts - crying during Biggest Loser, eating due to boredom, exercise ball and videos attracting cobwebs.

Maybe it has something to do with the change of seasons? My husband is an athlete so he usually keeps me pretty accountable, but lately I just don't care.

Why can't Bob come over and whip my lazy butt into shape?

onebigholiday said...

I'm sorry that you are feeling so blah. Exercising is hard, plain and simple. I think that as long as you make small changes in your life that will make you healthy, that will be a great first step. It gets easier with time. good luck!!!

La said...

Found you through Molly - and I agree, I am also so emotionally invested in The Biggest Loser. I cry, I get riled up and make grandiose plans to change my life and then I go to the kitchen and eat potato chips. I think life's too short to obesess, but the key is balance, right?

I enjoy your blog! :)

Clink said...

Ohhhhhh I totally understand. It is just easier to eat whatever I want and not worry about a few extra pounds.

But when I am eating healthy and exercising, I feel so damn good. I have to remember that.

A Margarita said...

Ahh! I totally understand. We can motivate each other. It's totally doable if you're doing it with a friend.

I agree with Clink. I feel so fabulous when I exercise and eat right, but it's so hard when I'm craving chocolate chip cookies.

Good luck chica!

molly said...

I hear you on the working out thing. It's so hard to just get up and do it.

But if it helps at all, you look stunning in your wedding pictures. Seriously.

Princess Pointful said...

I can sympathize on the blah.
When I am run so ragged during the day, plus having work & chores in the evening, exercise is often the last thing I want to do in my spare time.

Paulette Foley said...

I hear ya friend! Did one of those crazy "real age" tests this week...OUCH! Guess I could knock off about 6 years if I would just take a walk everyday. How hard could that be?